Looking at my process
There are days when I wonder how much of what I do/say/think is holding me back from the life I want to be living. Actually not just the life I want to be living, but that which I was created to live. Self sabotage can be a hard and bitter pill to swallow at times. When you become aware of the aspects of your life that you play “small” in and negate the progress and growth that you are working so hard for, it can feel heart breaking. So what do we do when this comes up for us? Where do we go within ourselves to find the answers as to why the self sabotage is happening in the first place? It can take on many forms and show up in our lives in a myriad of ways. Lack of focus, being easily distracted, harping on that which is not “important” and procrastinating are just a few examples. Or my favorite one is when I have done so much to protect myself and get prayed up before I venture out into the world and then when the first person who cuts me off makes me want to tell them off. So my question is, does that negate all the work I just put in praying for humanity?!
We have discussed (and will keep discussing) how living from the heart is a very powerful form of a whole life. As I grapple with this unchartered territory so many questions arise and I feel more often than not that my footing isn’t sure and I am then reminded that living this way is not for the faint of “heart”. I know it is an illusion, but when you feel like the “game” is rigged not in your favor and most people are against you, how will living from your heart be powerful enough to protect you?
Utilizing faith based words (for me are words from Christianity) and affirmations that speak to the gap. I repeat things like “No weapon formed against me shall prosper” “Greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world” “I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me” One of my affirmations is: I am love. Love is BIGGER than all things. I am understanding. Understanding wears patience. I am wrapped in Divine Truth that imparts me with wisdom for all situations. I am love. It helps me and hopefully if you have ever felt like me perhaps some of these things will assist you also.